Friday, 23 April 2010

In Remembrance of My Beloved Dad...

Today is 23rd April 2010... 4 years has gone since my dad passed away.

4 years ago, I get to hear with my own ears from dad, that Jesus is good. I get to hear this from a devout Buddhist, a good man who takes care of his family, a good father who makes sure that his wife and children (a son and a daughter) have everything they need in their lives.

I've been trying to tell dad about Jesus weeks before he passed away. One time, when he was ordered to stay in the hospital for a night, I told dad (after mum and my elder brother walked away) to pray to God if there is 'anything' disturbing him at night.

Being a Chinese, we folks tend to believe in ghosts and stuff, but since I became a Christian, I am not afraid of such evil spirits and I still remember telling dad clearly "Dad, if at night when you're sleeping and there is 'things' disturbing you, pray to your God. If your God can't help you, please try to call on Jesus name. Just try this as a last resort, OK?"

The next morning, when dad is back home, I heard my brother asking him whether there is any 'thing' disturbing him at night, to which my dad just brushed him off by saying no. After my brother left (he stayed at another place with his family), I went and asked my dad the same question.

Me: Pa, did anything disturb you at night yesterday?
Dad: Yes, you know my legs not straight because of the gout, so at night I was sleeping, felt something trying to pull my legs straight.

Me: Maybe the nurse doing that?
Dad: No. Couldn't be cos' the thing keep pulling even though I said "please stop pulling, my legs hurt".

Me: Then did you pray to your God?
Dad: I did.
Me: Did it help?
Dad: No. The thing still pulling my legs.
Me: Then did you call on Jesus name?
Dad: Yes. I said in my head 'Jesus, please help me. My legs hurt'.

(Praise God I'm hearing this, but trying to keep my excitement down)
Me: Then what happened?
Dad: Then that thing stopped pulling. I continued my sleep in peace.
Me: Wah! See, isn't it good?
Dad: Actually Jesus is good.

(Amen to that!)

You know, because of what my dad said "Actually Jesus is good" that I believed.

I believed my dad has put his faith in Him.
I believed when my dad passed away, he is up in heaven with Him.
I believed my dad is in a better place now, and no longer suffering.

I'm glad I'm able to kiss your forehead and tell you 'I love you' every time I wiped your head, face and body when you were bedridden.
I'm glad I'm able to tell you some of the bible stories (children version for easier understanding).

I'm glad I'm able to accompany you at night (even though it means I'm sleeping on the floor next to dad's bed)

I'm glad I'm around when you left us.

I'm glad God heard my prayers that everything be done according to His will, that you leave in peace and no longer need to endure any sufferings.

Dad, even though it has been 4 years now, I still reminisce the time we spent together. I wished I could do more things with and for you while you are still alive. I will always cherished and treasure our moments together. Take care of mum, and I hope to see you guys one day in heaven. Thank you dad for everything. Amen...
John 1:12 (NIV) Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name,
he gave the right to become children of God



Supermanslady said...

Thank you for sharing. I am praying for my husband (in middle of a divorce) salvation. You gave me renewed hope today that one day he will see Jesus and acknowledge him.

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hello Supermanslady!

Thanks for dropping by. I will pray that God will open up his eyes and mind and may he one day received Him! Amen!

Everyday Mom Ideas said...

This was touching. What a neat moment to share. Thank you.

Happy Gramma said...

That was so beautiful! I got chill bumps on my arms just reading it. Isn't it wonderful when someone receives Jesus before they die. I will probably never meet you on this earth but it is great to know that I will see you and your dad in heaven!
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I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Everyday Mom Ideas,
Thanks for visiting. God bless you!

Hello Happy Gramma!
Thanks for dropping by my blog and for following my blog too! Hope to see you again in my blog sometime!

Btw, I'm your latest follower! God bless you & have a blessed weekend ahead!

thirdy_smom said...


I am in tears, seriously :(

I miss my dad so much and after reading this I thought to myself I should've not made his last days here on earth as bad as it was. Even if I am a daddy's girl, we still have fights and all that. Christmas of 2004, we had a big argument but before New Year's Eve of 2005, we talked like nothing happened. Few days later, he died and I never got a chance to say "sorry" and "i love you". Still, I know that he is looking after my family and that he is already in good hands.

Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful story of yours. It has touched my heart and spotted my Achilles heel. :)

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Oh Anne...

I'm sorry I made you cry... :( Actually I cried too after re-reading this post :( Bwaaaaa...

Well, what we can do now is make sure we live life to the fullest and honestly, after my parents passed away, I thought life is what matters, not our job, not climbing the ladders fighting for higher pay, not getting all the gadgets and fashionable stuff and all...

thirdy_smom said...

You didn't really made me cry, sis. Actually, you just made me realize how valuable our lives are and that we should spend it with our loved ones because we will never know when would be the last time we'll see them. I realized I am crying because I know I did wrong.

I totally agree with you. Appreciate what we have and do not thirst for more than what we should get. :) ooops sorry, I had to spam on this post!

I'm a full-time mummy said...


Everyone makes mistake. It's good you realized that and do something about it. Some people don't even realized that and go on thinking they did nothing wrong. That's bad right?

No worries about spamming this post. It's not like facebook where you annoys everyone else who commented on it... ;D hahahah

cheri said...

it was good that you were able to share the message of Jesus with your dad before he passed on. it's just sad that your baby wasnt able to get to know his granddad.

shuttling in from SITS :)

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi cheri!

Yeah, I'm glad that happened. Cos' after dad passed away, mum fell sick and she said the sinner's prayer and attended church once before she too joined dad in heaven...

And yeah, I do feel sad my Ben did not get to see his grandparents, guess I only have photos to show him next time...

Thanks for dropping by btw, appreciate your comments and visits! :D

Diane said...

I lost both my parents last year. I actually wrote about losing my dad in a blog a few days ago ( and I know how hard it is to say good-bye. We are so lucky to have parents who were good to us and gave us opportunities in our lives. Cherish the memories.

Katie said...

OH thank you for sharing. My dad had a heart attack and in a instant went home to our Lord on Dec. 2nd. We are still in the raw emotions of his passing but find comfort that we will see him again in Paradise. How Awesome to hear your dad say that Jesus is good! That is such a blessing. I will pray that the rest of your family will also come to know our Lord as their savior. Thanks again for sharing! I am stopping by from FF!

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Diane!
Sorry to hear about your parents. I will check out your post in a while. Thanks for sharing and have a blessed weekend!

Hello Katie!
Oh, so sorry to hear about your dad. Thanks for your prayers and God bless you & your family!


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