Monday, 11 January 2010

In Remembrance of My Beloved Mum...

Today is 11th January 2010... 3 years has gone since my mum passed away.

Lots of things have changed in this 3 years... I've moved out of our family house (where I spent 2 decades living there), got engaged, got married (after almost 10 years going out with my now hubby), got a better paying job, shift back to the previous job with a much better paying offer, got pregnant, delivered a boy, quit my job and now a full time mummy...

All this happened just in 3 years and my dearest mum is not around to see it... :( So here goes a list of items I remember about you, mum…

* I remember… how delicious is your fish dishes… till today, I still can’t find anybody who can cook the fish dishes as good as you…
And NOW, I regret… not learning how to cook it when you are still alive…

* I remember… you waking up early to boil eggs or made me lime juice whenever I start to have sore throat symptoms…
And NOW, I missed the times when I see a mug with steaming hot lime juice or or boiled eggs waiting for me...

* I remember…when I was 12 years old and my broken right arm is healing and you waited for me to finish school so that you can bring me over to Big Aunt’s house for my weekly dose of Chinese medicine and you wrapped my arm with the 4 straight sticks wrapped in cotton cloth to protect my arm.
And NOW, I don’t mind having to drink and having my right arm bandaged with the dried insects and Chinese herbs medicine just so that I can relive all these memories of you taking care of me again...

* I remember…breaking my right arm AGAIN at home trying to climb up the double-decker bed and you thought I saw cockroaches on my bed… and your horrified face when you saw my arms broke AGAIN (this time with the privilege of seeing how it looks like when it broke!)
And NOW, despite the pain that I had then, I wouldn’t mind breaking it again just so that I get to ride a cab at night (a luxury during those times!) with both my parents fussing over me and rushing the driver to reach my Big Aunt’s place ASAP!

* I remember… when I was in primary school, the countless trips I had with you to your hometown (an ex-coal mine area called Batu Arang) during school holidays and how I slept on your lap throughout the journey...
And NOW, it has been years since I last go back to your hometown... there's nothing left there to go back to anyway...

* I remember…when I was small, how I used to follow you to your friend’s house and watched you guys played mahjong...
And NOW, I can proudly say I’m quite a good mahjong player though I still can’t figure out how to add the points (cos I was used to watch how people play and too young to understand how they count the points)

* I remember... having you tying my hair into cute braids... even when I’m already old enough to tie my own hair... its just that you tied it so well and nice...
And NOW, I hope… I can do the same for my daughter(s??) next time…

* I remember…getting scolded by you when I got carried away with my karaoke jamming session in my own room.. ok, ok, I ain’t no Kelly Clarkson or Sarah McLachlan or Dixie Chicks…
But NOW, if only I can hear you scold and nag me again…

* I remember…during your last few moments on earth, I get to tell you how much I love you , how much you’re loved by all of us, how you’ll always be remembered by us, and I get to thank and ask for your forgiveness for all these years..

* I remember… how shocked I was when I found out you had said the sinner’s prayer cos I never thought it would happen… and how happy I was that you choose to be saved and realised that before its too late…

* I remember… that hubby (then boyfriend) and I told you bible stories when you were in hospital…and how awkward it was because I’m good in speaking Cantonese but being a new Christian, I am not very knowledgeable and hence lousy in interpreting the parables and hubby was the opposite of me (lousy in speaking Cantonese but good in interpreting the parables)…

* I remember…how we both struggled just to tell you how Jesus was born, baptised, the hardship, crucified, etc etc…
But at the end of it all, I remember how ecstatic we were when we ended with prayers and hearing you saying ‘Amen’… and getting to tell you that Jesus loves you and will not let you suffer any longer...

Mum, I never would’ve wished for any other mum but you… I thank God that I had a great mum like you!

Please take care of dad and watch over us from heaven... I love you both... ALWAYS... and I pray that we'll see each other again in heaven... Amen...

21 comments:

thirdy_smom said...

My dad died Jan 4th. I miss him too and I know what you feel. I had a little retreat after the new year and cried all day..:(

But I know both your Mom and Dad are watching over you. Who knows, they might just be beside you or Ben guiding you as your angels :)

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Anne,

Thanks for sharing and for your comforting words. I do wish and hope they are both watching over us from above and guiding us in every way...

5thsister said...

What a beautiful relationship you had with your mother! This was a very special gift and blessing from God. Not everyone gets to experience the closeness and love that you had. What a wonderful thing to hold close to your heart!

I'm sure your mom is now a saint in heaven praying for you every day. There will be a time when you'll be reunited once again. God bless!

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Polly!

Thanks for your comments! :)

JDaniel4's Mom said...

What a very special lady! Stopping by from SITS!

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi JDaniel4's Mom!

She is, and always will be...
Thanks for dropping by, have a nice day! :)

Noelle said...

what a beautiful post.

Bex said...

What beautiful words, sounds like she was an amazing lady. xxx

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Noelle & Bex,

Thanks guys. My mum is an amazing lady! :)

Brook said...

Thank you for dropping by my blog. I will DEFINITELY be praying!!!

For His glory,
Brook

Midday Escapades said...

Jenny, this brought tears to my eyes. What a beautiful tribute to your mum! My thoughts will be with you today.

p.s. Thank you so much for the comment and for letting me know about my giveaway win. :0)

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Brook!
Thanks for the prayers & for following my blog! :)

Hey Midday,
Thanks for your prayers and thoughts. You are welcome on the giveaway win - just thought you'd like to know. Glad to hear a fellow blogger friend won something! Congrats btw! :D

Karen, author of "My Funny Dad, Harry" said...

What a nice post as tribute to your mom! Sad she didn't get to see all those major changes in your life though, I was so glad my mom got to come to my wedding and see me happily married before she died.

We used to play MahJong too. My aunt gave us the game and I still have it! It had wooden racks with the scoring attached to them.

That's is so wonderful she trusted in Jesus as her personal Savior before she passed on and you had a part in that! Praise the Lord! It's such a comfort knowing that we'll see our loved ones again in eternity!

I wrote a post about my mom too because I miss her so much: http://zemeks.blogspot.com/2009/10/letter-to-mom-because-i-cant-write.html

Visiting from SITS.

Lorina said...

Stopping by from SITS.. What a great relationship, sounds like a wonderful mother.

MONICA-LnP said...

hi jenny,this was very touching,thank you for sharing the love for your mom and remembering her in such a great way.
stopping by from SITS

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Karen,
Thanks for sharing your post too. I have read it and it's touching indeed. Yes, I believe we'll see our loved ones again in heaven one day! :)

Hey Lorina & Monica,
Thanks for dropping by and for reading this post!

Chanda the Eco-Cheap Mom said...

What a very touching post! You are so blessed to have had such a lovely relationship with your mum. She is watching over you for sure and is very proud!

Stopped by from SITS to share the comment love!

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Chanda!

Thanks for visiting my blog and for the comforting words. God bless you! :)

precious said...

Hi Jenny!
This post of yours made me cried even both my parents are still alive. It reminded me to love them even more and appreciate each & everyday we have to be with each other on earth. Amen to your post. :) and it is so good to know that your mom accepted Christ when she was alive and it is comforting to know that she is in God's arms and u will see each other again.

The Green Family said...

What a touching post...I'm reminded daily of how lucky I am to have my mother in my life still. As I grow older, I realize even more how precious life is.

What a blessing to get those last moments to share the work of the lord and your love for her.

She is with you during all your accomplishments and trials..God Bless

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hello precious!

Thanks for dropping by my blog and yes, please please appreciate and love your parents while they are still alive!

Hi The Green Family!
Yes, I am glad that my mum accepted Christ before she passed away. Thanks for your wish and God bless you too!

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