So I thought, maybe I should do a self appraisal for my new role as a full time SAHM to see what I've done so far... I got this Performance Appraisal Form off the Internet, it is 8 pages long so I'll just copy down those questions which I find relevant and fill up my feedback in green. Here goes...
org/division/dept: Err... Home?
name: I'm a full-time mummy
position: Full-time SAH mummy
year or period covered: June - December 2009
length of service: Six months as a SAHM
State your understanding of your main duties and responsibilities.
To raise my child in the best possible ways I know, to breastfeed as long as he wants it, to nurture and train him up to be a responsible person who respects his parents, to be a God fearing child and bring joy to the life of people who meet him.
1. Has the past year been good/bad/satisfactory or otherwise for you, and why?
I quit my IT job of 9 years only to find myself working for a demanding and attention-seeking boss aka my son, Benjamin :P in terms of whether it has been good/bad/satisfactory, well, of course it has been a good time for me!
2. What do you consider to be your most important achievements of the past year?
The most important achievements? There are so many that I can't just pick a particular one! Let's see..
* I delivered my son naturally
* We did our own DIY confinement, which saves us RM3,300/= since we do not need to hire a confinement lady
* With Ben turning 9 months old today (4th Dec 2009) it means I've been exclusively breastfeeding Ben for 9 months already...
* Which also means... I've not been having menses for 18 months now (think of all the $ I saved for not needing to use any sanitary pads yet...)...
* I quit my job to be a full time mummy for 6 months already!
3. What do you like and dislike about working for this organisation?
* I like that I do not need to wake up at 8am, rush off to work, getting headaches when production issues occurred, attending meetings, rush for deadlines, reached home after 7pm and etc
* I dislike that I am not able to just simply take MC or go on a leave and just sleep on the bed relaxing... and of course did I mention the sucky part of not getting salary anymore?
4. What elements of your job do you find most difficult?
Most difficult? The part where I had to deal with sh*tty stuff. I'm not kidding. Here's the picture to proof my point (I even blogged about it!). I used to love it (they say breastfed babies' poop doesn't smell. I agree with that... until Ben started solids at 6 mths old... since then...hufff huuffff...can't breathe...I - need - oxygennnnnn!!!!!)
5. What elements of your job interest you the most, and least?
The part where I can be the 1st person to catch the magical moments when my son accomplished his 1st milestones! The least should be the same answer to the previous question.
6. What do you consider to be your most important aims and tasks in the next year?
Next year? I'm only living through each day at a time now... do I need to think so far ahead?
7. What action could be taken to improve your performance in your current position by you, and your boss?
To improve my performance? Hmm... I hope I can have more 'me' time to relax and reward myself a bit. I think my boss (aka Benjamin) should help mummy out by taking longer naps in daytime (now he averages between 30 minutes to 1-2 hours which doesn't give me ample time to nap as well as I sometimes rush to clear off the admin stuff and paperworks for hubby's own IT business)
8. What kind of work or job would you like to be doing in one/two/five years time?
Err... the same kind I guess if number 2, 3 or even 4 comes along... :P
9. What sort of training/experiences would benefit you in the next year? Not just job-skills - also your natural strengths and personal passions you'd like to develop - you and your work can benefit from these.
I hope to have more physical strength to carry and lug my child around. I also hope to develop the passion to cook for the family (now I homemade Ben's solids while MIL take cares of our cooking) And, yes, I hope I'd be able to curb my anti-vege policy and have more courage to eat vegetables.
Score your own capability or knowledge in the following areas in terms of your current role requirements (1-3 = poor, 4-6 = satisfactory, 7-9 = good, 10 = excellent). If appropriate bring evidence with you to the appraisal to support your assessment.
1. commercial judgment eh? what does this means?
2. product/technical knowledge I'd say 7. I try to surf the Net to find out more on the products and stuff we're giving to Ben
3. time management I'd say 4. Like I mention earlier, I wish for more time so that I can rest after clearing off the admin stuff. Did I mention I sleep at 2-3 am everyday?
4. planning, budgeting and forecasting I'd say 8. With 1 less income to the family, we don't spend unnecessarily now. Every purchase is properly researched thoroughly. We do skipped this rules when it comes to buying quality products and food (such as organic stuff or more pricey vegetables and fruits) for Ben.
5. reporting and administration I'd say 8. I report to hubby and MIL on daily basis when Ben did new things. I also took lots of pictures of Ben and compile them into PDF documents to share with family members and close friends.
6. communication skills I'd say 8. Although I no longer need to communicate with colleagues, users or vendors, I do communicate with suppliers (for hubby's own IT biz), family members and friends via emails, Facebook, MSN or occassional gathering.
7. delegation skills I'd say 8. I try to catch hubby whenever he's at home and delegate the tasks of playing and spending time with Ben, especially when it comes to cleaning up the sh*tty mess hehehe (which hubby has nowadays learned the hints and ran away before I managed to tell him what to do... of course hubby always came back and grumbling to himself why is he not out meeting clients and he has to clean up the mess... ;p)
8. IT/equipment/machinery skills I'd say 8, since I was from IT background previously, so no problems with IT stuff for the moment. Look, even Ben knows a thing or two!
9. meeting deadlines/commitments What deadlines??
10. creativity I'd say 8. To be able to turn anything within sight into a distraction for a wriggling baby especially during nappy changing time is a crucial skill that takes tons of creativity and time to master! :D
11. problem-solving and decision-making I'd say 7. I need to improve my skill to solve and fix all the problems and havoc caused by Ben. The torn pages of the bible, story book etc... and with this, decision-making skill is important as well - to glue back or to tear away the whole page? and so on...
12. team-working and developing others I'd say 8. If I really need to do something urgently (like helping hubby in his biz), I'd get MIL to take over Ben for a while.
13. energy, determination and work-rate I'd say 2. Energy level critical! I need more time to rest and sleep!!
14. steadiness under pressure I'd say 7. I don't think there's much pressure at the moment,.. of course there is the out of the blue incidents where all things seem to happen at the same time which puts me under pressure but it gets sorted with delegation & teamwork! :)
15. leadership and integrity What leadership? Of course, now that Ben is watching our every mnoves and starting to imitate us, we have to watch our every actions and words.
16. adaptability, flexibility, and mobility I'd say 7. Everywhere we go, we have t be able to adapt and be flexible enough. No baby room for breastfeeding? No problem, I'd breastfeed at a secluded corner shield with a nappy cloth.
17. personal appearance and image I'd say 2. I don't pretty much care about my appearance and image any longer. I've never been the type to use make-up and accessories before I was pregnant, so no need for it now...
Phew.... so long winded, sorry for taking too much of your time to read this.. Well, there you have it! My self appraisal for 2009. I wonder if I get any bonus fom hubby after this? Hmmmmm,....* hint * hint * ;P